Friday, June 29
I had a string of experiences this week that affirmed that the universe is always listening. Listening to that mighty voice singing away inside about the vision I have for my life. All morning I've caught myself sorting through the tiny details of the week and scratching my head wondering if all that really just happened?
It started with an email that sent me whooping and hollering all the way upstairs to wake Matt up. Then followed an entire day that bubbled and brimmed with excitement and possibility. I felt confident and sure footed. I had this in the bag! Then the butterflies came last night. Starting in the pit of my stomach and traveling up to my heart. When I opened my eyes at 7am today, my butterflies had turned into a full on swarm of nervousness.
I got through it by remembering something a guest said on Oprah. Ha. Thanks Oprah!
Basically the guest was asked if she still got nervous before she went on stage. "Hell yes!" she said. Then she said that thing that really stuck with me. She said that whenever she feels nervous, she thinks how there might be that one person out there who really needs to hear her message. That one person who will be forever changed by what she shared at that moment in time. Like me. Who all these years later drew the confidence and ease I needed to swallow my nerves and move forward by remembering her words.
And that's exactly what I did today. I took a huge, nerve rattling chance and spoke my truth. Talked about my creative process and my life as an Alaskan artist. It was awesome. Terrifying. Exciting. Who knows where it will go? What will end up happening?
What I do know is that I'm proud of myself and my creative journey. I'm thankful that over the years I've learned that it's okay to feel fear and keep walking. You never know where you'll end up.